PAIN, PAIN, AND MORE PAIN!~

 

Can you say A-G-O-N-Y? Can you say EXTREME ANGUISH?  PAIN?  EXCRUCIATING PAIN?  TORTURE? INTENSE SUFFERING?  MISERY THAT KNOWS NO END?

I don't know that I have ever suffered like I am suffering right now, or maybe I have and just forgotten who knows?

THE SITUATION:

I have an instability in my left shoulder.  I have already been through this with my right shoulder.  I had a right shoulder arthroscopy years ago for bursitis.  The pain didn't subside after the surgery.  I switched docs.  The new doc told me I had an instability in my right shoulder.  What it boils down to is loose ligaments.  He said when I would lay down to try to go to sleep, my shoulder was becoming partially dislocated.  Can you say OUCH!  He prescribed 6 weeks of physical therapy.  Told me if that didn't work, he would have to do surgery to repair it.  I was determined for it to work.  I had already been through shoulder surgery once and DID NOT want to go through that again.  It was horrificly painful.  Thank God, the PT worked! My right shoulder has been great ever since. 

My left shoulder had started hurting similar to the pain I had experienced years ago in my right shoulder.  Of course, this happens after I lose my insurance in December.  Remember?  I had to leave my job because I could not work my schedule due to health issues.  My boss kept writing me up saying I never submitted her anything concerning my health issues (I did).  She just kept finding every little excuse to right me up.  I couldn't deal with that everyday and I quit.

Susan, my exboss, just found out her son who is probably like 3 years old may have Crohn's disease.  Please keep little Todd in your prayers.  Also, my nephew, Allen has cystic fibrosis.  He has since developed diabetes.  His parents came in from work today to find that their air conditioning had gone out and Allen was laying in the living room floor in a near diabetic coma.  Thank God they got home when they did and they were able to administer first aid to him as needed and get him turned back around.  Please pray for Allen.  He also has been making some very bad choices as of late that greatly concerns our family in regard to alcohol, drugs, etc.  Because of his already fragile state, these vices could be deadly for Allen.  Please, please pray for him.  He is so special to me and my family, especially my daughter, as they have always been close.

As for my situation, I was out walking my dog, Mary Jane, about a month ago on a retractable leash.  She suddenly darted to chase something when I didn't expect it.  Of course I had to have the leash in my left hand, which is rare because I am naturally right-handed.  When she reached the end of the leash, it jerked my shoulder.  I felt it tear then.  The pain has been gradually getting worse.  I am thinking it is probably a rotator cuff tear.  Rotator cuff tears are hard to fix.  Once they are torn, it is usually a chronic condition from that point on.  My Mom has had rotator cuff surgery twice and thinks she has torn it again.

I cannot get comfortable no matter what position I am in.  I have been in tears today off and on because it hurts so badly.  I called my doc and asked him to call my pain medication in.  He only called my thyroid medication in.  Another night without pain meds.  Oh joy!  Any volunteers out there to take me out in the pasture and shoot me like on old horse and put me outta my misery?  I really don't think I can bear another night of this intolerable pain and I have a high tolerance for pain!!!!!  I had both of my babies natural!  Anybody?

I can't even dress myself!  I feel like an invalid.  CJ, please come home.  I need you! (My baby girl is currently in S.C. visiting herBFF~).  Hubby and I are supposed to drive to the other side of Atlanta on Saturday to meet her BFF's Mom and pick her up.  We are bringing her BFF back with us this time.  She will visit for about a month.

Hey Doc! Please call in my Tramadol, for the love of God! ::sniff,sniff::