What on earth posssessed me to delete my journal? I did not have the money to get my Lexapro filled, so I had to go off of it all at once. I know from experience this is NOT a good thing. It sent me into a downward spiral bigtime. It was so bad I could not even stand myself. So................what's done is done. I cannot change it, but I can go on from here.................and I was coming up on my one year anniversary for this particular journal. ::whine::
So, let's start this baby over:
My name is Susan. In a few months my Hubby and I will be celebrating our 28th wedding anniversary. I have two children, a son who soon will turn 24 on August 6th, and a daughter who is 14.
My son wants to go to school for Game Design and Development. My daughter aspires to be a writer.
My husband is self-employed and runs his own interior trim business. My son works with him. I keep my husband's books for his business.
I presently homeschool my daughter (she is enrolled in an online school where the curriculum is bible-based).
As for me, I work from home as a radiology medical transcriptionist for the same hospital I was born in. I have lived in this same town for 44.5 years, except for the 3.5 years we lived in Colorado. We lived in Monument, Palmer Lake, and Broomfield while we lived there and there is not a day that goes by that I do not miss it terribly.
I love to read, journal, read journals, garden, walk, and cook. I love collecting, yard sales, flea markets, antiques, and decorating country style. I love to watch most anything on HGTV.
We moved back to Alabama to help our son through a bad time after his wife decided the grass was greener on the other side. I got news for ya, Jess, it might be greener, but it still has to be mowed!!!! Relationships take work! I can attest to that after almost 28 years of marriage!!!!!
The last 2.5 years have not been fun for my son or for us as we loved Jess very much. She has hurt us badly and is still hurting us. I choose to forgive her and pray for her. God says vengeance is His, but the situation has surely taken its toll on all of us, but most especially on my son. ::sigh::
I deleted this journal in a fit of severe depression. I feel like we are in spiritual warfare and Satan is trying to take us down, but I REFUSE TO GIVE IN TO HIM. I AM A CHILD OF THE KING, THE MOST HIGH GOD, JEHOVAH!
I have power over Satan and I do NOT have to accept what he is trying to do to me and my family.
I REBUKE YOU, SATAN, IN THE NAME OF JESUS! I PLEAD THE BLOOD OF JESUS OVER MY FAMILY.
This is a little chorus I sing when I feel things start piling up on me:
IN THE NAME OF JESUS! IN THE NAME OF JESUS! I HAVE THE VICTORY!
IN THE NAME OF JESUS! IN THE NAME OF JESUS! I HAVE THE VICTORY!
CAN YOU SAY AMEN????????
BLESSINGS!~
Susan
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2 comments:
Hey Susan... I can relate to what you are going through... I am on Lexapro too and I wanted to go off of it and was trying to but circumstances in my life made it impossible.... depression sucks!!!! Maybe when we both have time we can chat about it.... you can im me if you want... hang in there!!!!! http://journals.aol.com/shayshaydc/Golfaholic
Sharon:)
welcome back, Susan. When I deleted my first journal, I didn't have any regrets; it was at a time when I needed to really listen to the Lord and take a break from journaling. I try not to think about it too much because it is done. I have a thought and I can understand why it might be hard to do, but have you ever considered shredding the wedding pictures of your son's? It might be healing in a way. Before we moved, I shredded some papers I was keeping on a situation I can't talk about but I didn't need the papers any more. It was such a relief to see them be reduced to mere shreds of paper and I left that baggage in Montana.
anyway, welcome back
betty
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