Saying goodbye to my baby! ::sniff::

Dear Journal,

I am quite sad today.  I have to take my Ram and turn it into the bank.  If I do not do it voluntarily, they will come pick it up, as I just went three payments past due on it.  I have had to revert to parttime working, as I cannot hold out to work a full 8 hours anymore.  My doc thinks I may have multiple sclerosis, but I have not been able to have the MRI to rule that out since losing my job in December that carried our insurance.  I personally think it is going to be some kind of debilitating arthritis, as that runs in my family, but I do have many MS symptoms, so who knows.  I am not going to cry in my cheerios over it regardless of the diagnosis.  I have cried in my cheerios literally about losing my Ram though.  I love my truck.  Thankfully, I still have my 1997 Buick LaSabre, and although my son wrecked in in February of 2007, I think it was, it is still driveable.  I have to get the insurance and tag, replace the windshield, get the outside mirror on the driver's side remounted, and get the front headlight fixed on the driver's side to be able to drive it.  The front tire on the passenger side is flat, so need to get that plugged.  Hopefully, they can plug it as it is a relatively new tire.  Anywho, I guess thats life.  Ya just gotta roll with the punches.  ::sniff::

The kicker is I still have to pay for the truck.  The bank will sell it for what they can get out of it, which probably isn't going to be much with gas prices like they are and it is a gas hog.  It was perfect for me though.  Since I work from home, I just used it to take my daughter to school and pick her up and occasionally make a jaunt into town for groceries or what have you.

To my Ram:  I love you.  I hope they find somebody who will love you and appreciate you as much as I did.

That's all for now journal.  Will write more as the mood strikes.

Susan

P.S.  I just got back from the bank after trying to turn my truck in.  I received a miracle today.  The bank let me keep my truck temporarily, long enough for me to get my Buick back on the road so I won't be without transportation.  Meanwhile, they are going to see if they can refinance it for a lower payment or defer the payments.  I need you to pray and/or hold good thoughts people!  Also, pray that my husband can find a job with great pay and benefits and that said job will have a great staff of people that will be easy to work with!  Thanks in advance!

Me

The Cruelty of Others

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Journey Through The Valley of Shadows

 

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Blessings!~

 

Susan

Happy 50th Wedding Anniversary!~

Dear Journal,

Yesterday, my family and I attended a 50th Wedding Anniversary party for my husband's aunt and uncle.  A remark was made by a family member about how my daughter was dressed.  Some of our family never even spoke to her.  She asked me why.  I had no answer.  They don't like the fact that I let her wear clothes with spaghetti straps and some of her tops THEY consider to be too lowcut and her dresses way too short (she was wearing shorts under her dress).  What they don't know is, my daughter went back into her room and put an undershirt on under the lowcut top to make it not be soooo lowcut (another of her cousins was dressed almost identical to her and I didn't hear any comments about her!!!!).  She was wearing her converse tennis shoes that come up to her knees.  She has her bangs dyed pink on one side and purple on the other.  Carrie is very artistic and creative.  They don't want their grandchildren to want to be like my daughter.  This infuriates me to NO end.  I am debating about whether to say anything or let it go.

They SHOULD be hoping and praying their grandchildren turn out like my daughter.  She is a rare gem in today's world of teenagers.  She is a good girl.  She has great friends.  When I let her go off with them, I don't have to worry about what she is doing.  She has always been where she said she is going to be, doing what she says she is going to be doing.  She has a heart of gold and a heart for people.  She has learned to put others needs above her own needs, sometimes at a great cost to herself.  She is an "old soul" if you will, wise beyond her 16 years of age.  She has ambition and wants to make something of her life.  She loves God, her family, and her friends and is loyal to the end.  Now tell me, family, what is your beef with my daughter again? Grrrrrrrrrr...now I remember why I liked living away 1500+ miles!!!!!~

::cough::  Umm...last time I checked Carrie is MY daughter.  It is up to ME, not YOU and your hypocritical judgemental ways to decide what is right for her.  Man, I could be petty and tell some tales I know to be the truth about YOUR kids, but good thing for you I am not like that.  I don't go around talking behind your backs about how I think you should dress your kids/grandkids or how I hope my kids don't turn out like yours.  See, regardless of the bad things YOUR kids have done, they are STILL my nieces and nephews and I love them as such.  I pray for them.  My Mom taught me a long time ago....what goes around, comes around, so if I were you...I'd watch out.  The good book also says how you judge is how you will be judged.  Put that in your pipes and smoke it!!!!!~

Signed,

Angry Mom

Thank you!~

 

Get your mind out of the gutter, ladies!  I mean a piece of Cake!!!!  Mwahahahahahahahaaaaaaa....

Just wanted to thank all who have emailed me to wish me a happy 49th birthday today.  I am grateful for every day that I wake up breathing, especially the older I get.  Hard to believe next August 2nd, I will turn the big 50!  Where does time go anymore?  Anyway, thanks to all of you who sent emails and commented my MySpace.

Blessings!~

Susan

P.S.  I would consider it a wonderful birthday present if you could take a moment and spend it in prayer or hold good thoughts in a moment of silence for our troops!~