
I have something I wish to share. Perhaps, it will help someone else deal with issues you might be facing that are similar to what I have been dealing with recently. I have been trying very hard to make some major changes in my life lately. I have been reading a lot of self-help books, inspirational books, and scriptures because I do realize I have some changes I need to make, one of which is I actually drive people away because I am so intrusive. Hear me out, please.
I have a HUGE heart for people. Although I mean well, it doesn't necessarily mean I always choose the right path. I have even tried to apologize to people I have wronged, but in some cases, it hasn't been well received. I have also tried to be supportive where it is very obvious to me now that my support wasn't wanted. I will finish my point I am trying to make before the end of this entry.
First, I want to say that I talked to my former daughter-in-law, Jessica, on her 26th birthday (April 26th) and wished her Happy Birthday via texting from my computer to her cell phone. We got things straight between us. I gleaned from that conversation that she is happy in her new life now with her new husband and two children and I have finally realized that I need to let go. She doesn't belong in our lives anymore. It gave me the closure I needed and I do believe I can let go now. With that closure went a lot of the pain I have been living with for the past five years.
I have been reading, "Right people, Right Place, Right Plan-Discerning the Voice of God." Through it, I have learned God wants me to make wise choices about who I let in my life and also that God brings some people in our lives for only a short time. When their purpose is done, He means for us to let them go. By trying to hang on when it is His will to let go, we hinder His will for us and His will for that person.
There is a "Jonah" in my life that God is telling me to cut loose and I need to do it even though it pains me to do so.
I am sure everyone has heard the story of Jonah and the whale from the bible. Because of Jonah's disobedience to God, the whole ship was going to go down with innocent people on it as well. Jonah knew the only way to save them was if they cast him overboard. As soon as they did so, the waters calmed. My point here is we all have Jonahs in our lives. I know I do. This person tears me down unintentionally; but still, he tears me down. He makes me feel worthless. He judges me on my past instead of the present.
For my own well being, I need to surround myself with people who love me and build me up instead of tear me down. I need people around me who make me feel good about myself instead of making me feel worthless; the friends who know my faults, but yet still love me because they know that my strengths far outweigh my weaknesses. The ones who know, for the most part, that my heart is in the right place.
By letting people who are not good for me go, I will be letting them follow the path God has chosen for them and I can follow the one He has chosen for me. I will no longer be hindering His plan for their life or His plan for mine. Then, and only then, will the Holy Spirit be able to come in and heal me as only he can do.
Hope I have helped someone by writing this. It never ceases to amaze me the things God can teach me when I open my heart up to Him and earnestly seek His will for my life.
Have a blessed day!~
Susan
