An Accident!~

 

 

I had an accident night-before-last.  I was putting stuff away in my new office on a bookshelf that Hubby had not secured to the wall yet, as he was letting his drill battery charge.  He told me NOT to load it, but I did anyway.  After I had it entirely loaded (this thing is taller than me), I had my back turned to it and it fell over on top of me.  I have horizontal bruises down my back and hips and my back has been hurting ever since.  Women!  Why are we so hardheaded?  ::giggle::  At least, I am alive to tell the tale.  I am thankful for that.

I have been unable to walk properly for about a week without limping.  My leg is feeling much better today so the prayers are working!  Keep up the good work! 

I am still fighting to keep my job.  Yes, I am the one who quit, but I didn't feel like I had any choice.

My boss said I never submitted anything to her concerning my medical condition, but I did.  I was working extra hours to help out because we are shorthanded per her request and she wants to write me up because I wasn't working the 8-hour schedule she asked me to work when I am classified parttime through the hospital?  They wanted to write me up for forgetting to clock in/out sometimes.  Hello?  I told her I was having cognitive issues like forgetfulness, memory loss, and concentration problems.  I refuse to be written up for something I cannot help.  She even wrote me up for not attending a meeting (a meeting where she intended to write me up for forgetting to clock in).  I got the time mixed up. Without my job, I have no insurance.  Without insurance, I cannot afford the medications I need.  I have to have the meds for hypothyroidism, as does my husband.  Without them, all sorts of things can go wrong because your thyroid regulates a lot of different things in your body.  We need a miracle here, but I believe in miracles!~

I received some sad news that my friend, Marlo, is not doing well.  She has cancer.  Marlo has been an inspiration to many.  Her unwavering faith in God has helped many of us.  I would ask that you keep her in your prayers and her husband Carson also.  They are building a new house on top of dealing with her illness.  Please keep this very courageous lady in your prayers.  In every email Marlo sends, she always has this scripture:

 John 11:4 When he heard this, Jesus said, "This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God's glory so that God's Son may be glorified through it."

I appreciate all the emails and comments in my AOL journal from all of you.  Your needs are being prayed for.  I also got Christmas cards from some of you.  I didn't get any out this year because of feeling so ill, trying to work, and moving.  Just know I treasure all of you.

 

I wish for all of you a happy, healthy, and prosperous new year!~

 

Blessings!~

 

Susan

 

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Stressful Times!~

 

 

What a stressful time in my life!~

I quit my job because I felt like they left me no choice.  My last day is scheduled to be December 31, 2007.  My doc put me on immediate medical leave.  He wants to do an MRI to rule out multiple sclerosis.  The test for Lupus came back negative.  I haven't gotten the results back from the rheumatoid arthritis test yet.  I live with chronic pain every day.  My leg gave out from under me while I was taking down the Christmas tree on Christmas night.  I managed to catch myself on the arm of my sofa before I hit the floor.  I have constant pain in my left leg.  I currently cannot walk without limping.

I will not be able to stay on my needed medications nor get the treatment I need if I lose my job.  I am fighting for it with the higher ups.  I could certainly use some prayers right now.  I need a miracle.  I believe in miracles!~

I wish for you and yours a happy, healthy, and prosperous new year!~

 

 

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The REAL Christmas Story!~

 

Luke 2 King James Version

The Birth of Jesus

Whether you choose to believe in Jesus Christ or not, this is still a beautiful story and one of my favorite scriptures.

 1And it came to pass in those days, that there went out a decree from Caesar Augustus that all the world should be taxed.

 2(And this taxing was first made when Cyrenius was governor of Syria.)

 3And all went to be taxed, every one into his own city.

 4And Joseph also went up from Galilee, out of the city of Nazareth, into Judaea, unto the city of David, which is called Bethlehem; (because he was of the house and lineage of David:)

 5To be taxed with Mary his espoused wife, being great with child.

 6And so it was, that, while they were there, the days were accomplished that she should be delivered.

 7And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn.

 8And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.

 9And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.

 10And the angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.

 11For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.

 12And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.

 13And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,

 14Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

 15And it came to pass, as the angels were gone away from them into heaven, the shepherds said one to another, Let us now go even unto Bethlehem, and see this thing which is come to pass, which the Lord hath made known unto us.

 16And they came with haste, and found Mary, and Joseph, and the babe lying in a manger.

 17And when they had seen it, they made known abroad the saying which was told them concerning this child.

 18And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds.

 19But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart.

 20And the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things that they had heard and seen, as it was told unto them.

 21And when eight days were accomplished for the circumcising of the child, his name was called JESUS, which was so named of the angel before he was conceived in the womb.

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I Quit!~

 

I guess it's official.  My last day with the hospital will be 12/31/2007.  It kinda hurts.  I loved my job, but I cannot deal with the stress of the two bosses over me always threatening me with writeups I don't feel I deserve.  I will move on to bigger and better things.

I dreamed last night I had a black panther and a huge snake in my home.  Oh my! I also dream about this one person who is no longer a part of my life, although I still wish he was, but I can never remember what I dreamed about him after I wake up, only that I dreamed about him.  Another family member dreams about him like I do, but in her dreams he is always apologizing.  A lot of people believe our dreams mean something.  Me?  I dunno.

I know my illness is wrecking my life.  It is costing me friendships and now it has cost me my job because I quit in a fit of rage.  Justifiable rage, but nevertheless, rage.  That is so not me.  I am more like my Carebear normally, very laid back and easy going with a long fuse, not some raging lunatic.  Where did I go?  I want me back!!!!!!!!

I spent the day in the ER.  My symptoms keep getting worse.  The chronic pain becomes almost unbearable at times.  Today I felt real faint.  They gave me a shot for pain (antiinflammatory).  I am STILL hurting.  Looking and praying for better days!

Merry Christmas!~

Life On A Daily Basis with Susan!~

 

I quit my job today.  Can anyone say Woo Hoo!

My daughter has put in an application for a high school of the fine arts.  It means she will be gone during the week and home only on weekends next year.  ::sigh::  I feel it is a good opportunity for her, as she is very gifted, but man will I miss her.  It depresses me to even think about it.

My symptoms seem to be getting worse.  I live in chronic pain each and every day.  I have some new symptoms to add to the list now.

 

I deal with these numerous symptoms on a daily basis.  I would wish it on no one.  It is all I can do to get out of bed, but I do make an effort to carry on.  I refuse to just shrivel up and die.

 

 

 

My symptoms include, but are not limited to:

 

Extreme fatique

Stiffness in my joints

muscle cramps, especially in my legs and feet

chronic pain in most of my joints, including the first joints of some of my fingers

I have trouble getting up from a sitting or lying position.

Mood swings

Depression

Anxiety

My legs jump, especially at night, but sometimes while I am typing I have problems with this also if I have been sitting for long periods

I have cognitive issues.  It feels like my brain is in a fog.  I don't know how else to explain it.  I have trouble concentrating, memory loss, and I can be talking and have trouble conveying what I am trying to say.  It is like my brain knows, but getting it from my brain to my mouth doesn't always work like I want it to.

I have problems sleeping and am excessively sleepy during the day, but even when I do sleep well at night, I am still excessively sleepy during the day.

The computer screen seems too bright sometimes and the brightness of the sunlight especially bothers me.

Vertigo

Nausea

Stress

 

I have been diagnosed so far with ADD, hypothyroidism, IBS, vitamin D deficiency, high cholesterol, bilateral plantar fasciitis with heelspurs, and am told I am transitioning into menopause.

 

I have loose ligaments in my left shoulder.  When I lie down at night, it causes my shoulder to become partially dislocated which causes excruciating pain making it very difficult to sleep.  I have to sleep with apillow under my arm.  I went through this with my right shoulder several years ago and had surgery and PT for it.

 

 

I cannot help but feel my doctors have missed something.  I am hoping the rheumatologist I have an appointment with can help me.  I am at my ropes end.  It is quite depressing to feel so bad on a daily basis to the point I don't even want to get out of bed, but I force myself to because I have a job and a family to take care of.  I promise you it is all I can do to do any of it, but I make myself do what I can.  I did not ask for any of this.  It is not fun to live like this, but my family needs me even if no one else does so I must try to carry on for them.  I do believe there is a doctor out there somewhere who can help me.  I am not going to give up.  I am going to keep on trying to find one who can help me.  I am a fighter, not a quitter, an optimist, not a pessimist.

 

 

I refuse to keep working in an environment where I am constantly threatened with write ups for something I cannot help.  God knows I hate being sick.  It has gotten to the point sometimes when I feel the worst, I have prayed He would just take me on.  I hurt just that bad and not occasionally, EVERY single day.  I covet prayers.

 

 

If anyone else has simliar symptoms and has a firm diagnosis, please comment me on what it could be.  Thanks!~

 

 

Merry Christmas!~

 

 

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I'm soooooo excited!~

 

I'm so excited!  I just can't hide it..........anybody remember that song?  Hee..........well, it's the truth.  Wanna know why?  I got new furniture coming on Saturday!!  Okay, Amy!  You rubbed off on me!!!!!  Hee.........or is it the fact that when us womenfolk move, we feel we are due new stuff.  Yeah.....maybe that's it.  ::snort::  Do ya know how long it has been since I got NEW stuff?????  The last dining room set I bought at a Thrift store.  I still have it, it's still nice, but way too big for the space I have in the new place, so I will store it for now.  Can't wait to post pics after it is all set up.  They are supposed to deliver it on Saturday after lunch.  I am on pins and needles!~

 

And.......I want to wish my nephew, Wade, a happy 25th birthday!!!!

Blessings!~

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Update on Shootings!~

 

We have not heard any news from our family in Arvada, so at this time, we are assuming they are okay, as we feel if something had happened to any one of them we would have heard by now.  We saw the identity of the two young people killed, a 26-year-old woman and a 24-year-old young man.  My heart goes out to these families, as well as the people who were injured and their families.

Soon after I sent the email about the shooting in Arvada, New Life Church in Colorado Springs was hit.  I have been on pins and needles all afternoon as we have friends who attend church there.  Thankfully, I got an email from her a little while ago that she and her family are fine.  They did not yet know the identity of the members of their church who had been hit.  Thousands attend New Life, so it could have been much worse.  Security personnel took out one of the gunman.  He certainly saved many lives and is a hero in my book.

I have attended both Faith Bible Chapel and New Life Church, as we lived just outside Colorado Springs in Palmer Lake and then we lived about 12 miles from Arvada.  Since my brother-in-law and his family attend Faith Bible Chapel, we have attended services there as well.  It is a scary world we live in today.

My niece works for a doctor.  He was shopping just a few days ago and a lady was in front of him who didn't have enough money to pay for what she was trying to purchase.  He finished paying the difference for the lady.  She waited on him until he came out of the store.  She told him that since he helped her, she wanted to help him in return.  She told him not to drink any Coca-Cola products after December 7th.  She said that was all she could say.

I hear sirens right now.  I haven't heard from my son today.  I hope he is okay, as well as the rest of my family and I hope all of your friends and loved ones are okay as well.

Blessings!~

P.S.  Please remember these families in your thoughts and prayers!~

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Breaking News........

 

I just heard on the TV about breaking news coming out of Arvada, CO.  A gunman went into the missionary training facility of Faith Bible Chapel in Arvada, CO and shot four people, so far killing two.  My Hubby's youngest brother and his family attend Faith Bible Chapel.  My niece and nephew go to school there.  The missionary training facility is a separate campus from where my niece and nephew attend school; but still, it is hitting too close to home.  One of my nieces graduated from Faith a couple of years ago.  I pray for their safety and pray that the gunman will soon be found.  I also pray for the family's who have lost loved ones to this nonsense right here at the holidays.  America needs to turn back to God and we need to be on our knees praying for our country!!!!!!!!!!!!  It has gotten to the point that you are afraid to leave your house for fear of being gunned down!~

Also remember our law enforcement trying to handle this situation and pray for their safety as well.

Blessings!~

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Still moving...........

 

 

Just stoppin' by to say I am still movin'.  Just wanted you to know I am alive, but barely........you accumulate alot of stuff in 29 years of marriage.  You don't realize how much until you have to move!!!!!  I am soooooooooo tard. :-P

Merry Christmas!~

 

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